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Last night I cleaned up my altar. It doesn't get a lot of use, because I don't do a lot in the way of actual ritual/spellwork.

Anyway, it's gotten a bit dusty, and yesterday I'd gotten bad news about a friend being diagnosed with a serious illness. So I went to clean it up, pondering the while what sort of changes might be appropriate to add healing workings there for her.

The surface got wiped down, and given the dust, most of the pieces on it were taken for a light wash in the sink.

When I got to one particular piece, I had a reaction to it.

I don't normally *react* to my stuff, magickal or not. And *this* piece, while it's on my altar, wasn't purchased as a magickal item. It's a ~ 2" crystal sphere that I bought nearly 14 years ago because the seller showed me how a reflection would invert if it was moved. I bought it because I thought it was cool. And when I later set up a formal altar for personal use, that's where it went. (Well. Sort of. Actually the altar happened to get set up where the sphere happened to live, mostly because that particular surface - the top of my dresser- was convenient, and it made sense for the sphere to become one of the altar items, despite it's de facto status as a knickknack.)

But last night, as soon as my fingers closed around it to pick it up...I heard that voice (it's *mine*) in my head, the one that speaks up from time to time to tell me things. It's an actual voice.

*Shit, it's empty.*

Empty. Not charged. No energy. Aside from the fact that I had any reaction *at all*, this is notable because I don't normally charge my stuff. In fact, until I got the Goblet of Fire, I don't think I'd ever charged *any* of them - I never felt the need to.

And I wasn't sure whether it needed charging because it ran out, or whether it had *always* been empty and now I was sensing it. Or what to do about it.

So I took it to the sink, and put it in water with rosemary and lavender - my normal cleansing mix. It didn't seem happy. (Cleansing isn't charging, after all.)

*What do you want?* I thought at it.

I got a mental image of the sphere, buried in a bunch dry lavender flowers, only in my mind, the lavender flowers looked more pink than light purple.

It didn't seem to want the lavender flowers I *have*. (Maybe it's not lavender it wants to be nested in? If not, what was that I saw? Anyone know what herb might look like pink lavender flowers?) It doesn't want the lavender *oil* I have.

I put it on the tray next to my bed overnight, along with a token from my friend, the one who's ill. (Something she gave me a few years ago, which happens to live on my altar.)

In the morning I tried to put it back where it'd been. (NW corner) It didn't want to go back *there*. I sort of hovered it around the altar to see what might feel "right".

It wanted to be next to the token, which had already been put back in it's usual spot. OK then.

I think it still wants charging, but I'm not sure *how*. That's mostly what I need suggestions on.

Other stuff I'm thinking about may or may not be related, but I think I've rambled enough.

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moonwolf23
Dec. 11th, 2013 09:57 pm (UTC)
Put it in the moonlight. ERmmm have some happy times near it. See if any of these flowers look like it? https://www.finegardening.com/PlantGuide/PlantFinder.aspx?274=2048&294=192 I'm thinking a hyssop or an Agastache. Finding that out may tell you which Goddess said it was hers and how to charge it properly.
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 11th, 2013 11:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
moonwolf23
Dec. 12th, 2013 05:49 pm (UTC)
Just thought of something....

Hold the crystal when you are thinking of your friend, and are giving your friend energy, that may help the crystal as well to charge.
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 12th, 2013 06:28 pm (UTC)
:) I actually did that that night - I spent some time with the crystal in one hand and the token in the other while I was laying in bed before I fell asleep. (The reality is, that's why they both wound up on the bedside tray; I just didn't bother getting out of bed and set them there until morning!)
couri
Dec. 11th, 2013 10:04 pm (UTC)
I either leave stuff on a windowsill overnight and into the day, or else I use incense to cleanse and charge. Your sphere sounds tricky; one of the first things I've learned is that crystals are ...alive. (I've got one that doesn't like me and I've no idea what to do with it. Chuck it in the woods, bury it? No idea). If it won't work with you--and the inverted shadow and it's yelling at you ...well, I'd think about giving it a proper burial or something and using a different piece.

I'm new, so forgive the ignorance, but one of those things would be ...yeah, okay, as far as I'm concerned, it's doable ... but if it's weird (inverted stuff), demanding, swearing at you and all that other stuff, it doesn't seem worth it, at least as a magickal item. I'd ditch it. Or take it to my local pagan store to have it looked at. I mean, sorry, but the thing sounds kind of counter-productive.

As a healer, on a related topic, even though you didn't ask, love is the highest vibration and the best way to heal someone.

I'm also more proto-shaman than witch, so I could be more superstitious and whatnot than others. I'll be watching this; it's fascinating (sorry).
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 11th, 2013 11:46 pm (UTC)
The sphere didn't swear at me at all. That was my own voice, realizing it was drained. I swear a lot. :) I don't think it's trying to be difficult or contrary. There's nothing bad or unpleasant that I'm picking up, just that I suddenly seem aware that it's drained (when I was never aware of whatever charge status it may have previously *had*).

The inversion of a reflected object is a physical property of it, it's not a magickal thing. It has a sort of AB-looking coating on part of it. If my reflection hits the outside, it's right side up. If the coating is to the back of the sphere and my image passes through the sphere before hitting the inside of the coating, the reflection gets inverted. (I hope that makes sense.)

I can put it on the sill overnight, but I'm not sure that's what it wants.

As for the crystal you have that doesn't like you, have you tried asking it what you should do? I had a big chunk of green rock that was part of a set I'd gotten off Freeshare and it didn't want to be with the other stuff on my altar. It just didn't "belong". It sat for years in a box. (But what are a few years to a rock? They exist for millenia...) I finally gave it to someone I thought it'd be happier with. (I don't know how that worked out, but I'm also not worried about it.)

Edited at 2013-12-11 11:47 pm (UTC)
couri
Dec. 12th, 2013 12:42 am (UTC)
Oh, cool, I get it now.

When I put things out to charge, I make sure they get the moonlight and the sunlight, if that helps.

The crystal seems to want to be shot of me. I don't know who to give it to, however. Maybe I should treat it like a '70s pet rock and set it free in the wild?

Since I'm not really a witch (it's hereditary; I can't help it ...the weird abilities and the things I encounter), I tend to come across odd stuff and react on the better-safe-than-sorry side of things. Until I can find a book or something on West Asian shamanism, maybe I should just observe? XD
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 12th, 2013 01:05 am (UTC)
*G* I'm pretty flexible with what "witch" means. And I don't speak for everyone here, but I certainly have no issue with you chiming in. If I'm unclear about something, it might not just be you who misunderstands what I tried to describe. :-)

(The image inversion is the sort of thing that would make sense in two seconds if you ~saw~ it happening. I couldn't locate a video (or diagram) (very possibly due to not knowing the right term to search on), and I'm not going try and make one. (I have enough trouble taking decent still photos!))

There's a difference between someone not knowing (whatever) and saying/admitting it and someone who pretends to know (or knows a little and think they know much more).

Stick around!
couri
Dec. 12th, 2013 02:14 am (UTC)
Hey, thanks :) I'm trying to learn to control hereditary shamanism from witchcraft books and I've gotten in over my head a few times because, well, the skill-set isn't exactly the same, but it's similar enough that we're all in the same family kinda thing, I think? There are definite overlaps. The last shaman in my family died when my mom was a kid. She's a witch. I have no idea what happened to me. Actually, I'm still kind of freaked out by my unusual (i.e. non-witchy) abilities.

But, at the moment, I need to stop assuming that, just because strange things happen to me, it doesn't mean that that's the case for everybody. Or maybe different weird things happen to others. I've gotten a little paranoid lately.

I shouldn't be giving out opinions to people. I'm slowly getting my own shit under control (I really need that hypothetical book!), but so far as other things go, I know just enough to be dangerous. Eek. XD

asteampunkwitch
Dec. 12th, 2013 03:25 am (UTC)
I did *solicit* input, so don't be down on yourself for responding! I used to tell new members of a club that I was in that they shouldn't be afraid to stick their two cents in - their opinions were just as valuable as those of the more experienced ones, in some ways *because* they were new - they had a different perspective.

I think "strange" (magickal) things don't happen necessarily to everyone. And some folks it happens to are determined to chalk it up to anything BUT magick. Some aren't paying attention enough to realize what's happening. I do think it's a good idea to be careful who you discuss it with. Some folks are fine with it, others may think you're nuts.

If you're looking for sources that might be helpful (like a book), why not do a post and ask for recommendations?

You can also poke at the searchable catalog of the Open Hearth Foundation to see what comes up: http://library.openhearth.org/cgi-bin/koha/opac-search.pl
couri
Dec. 12th, 2013 06:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the link; that looks really promising! At this point, I guess any book that addresses shamanic abilities would help, but ideally I'd like to stick a bit more closely to what my ancestors did (I'm half West Asian) ...it just makes sense to me kinda thing.

And if I sit idly by and don't talk or make the occasional mistake, I've realized I won't learn anything (and this post is a mine of info. about crystals. It's great), so thanks again :)

Oh, the strange magickal things that happen to me are mainly in meditation, so I can't really ignore them. However, I'd definitely keep my trap shut about it in non-Pagan areas. I've had crash courses in fighting nasty human spirits, fighting nasty non-human spirits, shielding and circling, because things keep attacking me. It's getting old really fast.

(The downside of coming from a family of gifted people? Bad witches. My grandmother was one. She used her stunted abilities to ferret out people's weak spots and annoy them, and since she was never trained, she went kind of nuts ..don't know if that was misuse of abilities or just her. She died a few years ago but occasionally turns up to wreak havoc. Death has not improved her. I actually feel kind of vindicated: my wards are set so that bad things stay out, and she can't get in, so in my family, we didn't exaggerate how horrible the bloody woman is. She was evil and is still evil).

I'm sorry for hijacking your post, but I've learned a lot. That's awesome!
theonlymeyouget
Jan. 26th, 2014 03:33 pm (UTC)
I know this is an old comment, but I'm new to the comm and was browsing.

I'm the exact same way. Born... like this. However "this" is.

It first started to show up when I was 13 or 14, around puberty (and how classic and obvious is that, really?). A little flash of precognition. I could know where people were without having any logical way of knowing where they were, I could know intimate things about people that I had absolutely NO way of knowing, nevermind that a 14 year old wouldn't have a frame of reference for... just a whole conglomeration of weird shit.

But man, I was 14, you know! And in an exclusively Christian town of 500 people.

And then I ignored it/denied it/stuffed it down until about 2 years ago when I met someone. He was an asshole, a fake, a fraud, a narcissist, and an abusive piece of shit. But he DID have a purpose. Because he doesn't have beliefs of his own, or any sort of identity, he appropriated mine. Tried to do what I could do and you know what, it actually WORKED but only on MY end. At least it proved it was real. Too bad he also messed up a lot of my workings because whatever was listening to me, was ALSO listening to HIM, either not knowing he was a faker or "trusting" me because I didn't know it at the time.

Now, I've only just started exploring it seriously.
ofwinterspast
Dec. 11th, 2013 10:20 pm (UTC)
Lavender can come in shades that look pink. I have a crystal that occasionally just wants to sleep on my pillow. Sounds silly, right? They just have a way of letting us know.

http://www.seedman.com/lavender.htm
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 11th, 2013 11:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm not sure if I can find those pink varieties for sale, but now I know what to search for. :)
ofwinterspast
Dec. 12th, 2013 04:04 pm (UTC)
Most welcome!
neumeindil
Dec. 12th, 2013 09:54 am (UTC)
Ask her about lupine. There are pink varieties of it that grow like lavender. You might also research purple loosestrife, Lythrum salicaria. I've no idea what it does, or why I called your sphere a she, but that's what came to my head as I read. :) But, with that in mind, ask her about sitting in the moon light for a while to charge? If that doesn't work, see if she wants to charge with flame and maybe sit her near the stove or next to an appropriately colored candle?
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 12th, 2013 06:43 pm (UTC)
The sphere doesn't have a gender that I'm aware of. I wonder if you picked it up from when I wrote "Something she gave me a few years ago, ", but that refers to my friend (who is female) who gave me the item I'm referring to as a token.

I did leave the sphere on a windowsill last night, although with the street lighting it's hard to tell how much moonlight might actually get to it there. (There's no good place to leave it for that, as I'm in an apartment.) It's still on the sill now, and it's getting sunlight. Unless I put it outside overnight, which...eh...there is a place I *could* do that, but as cold as it is right now, I'm actually worried what an abrupt change in temp might do. I'd be pretty horrified if I went back and it was split or cracked.

I'm going to toss a bunch of different charging methods at it, I think, and hope it picks up enough of what it needs from one or more.

Thank you for the flower suggestions! *scribbles notes*.
evieeros
Dec. 13th, 2013 08:52 pm (UTC)
I'd be careful with purple loosestrife. It's an invasive species here in the US (at least I think that is where you are). It does have a history as a medical plant that is safe for use even in very young children. However, in places where it is not native it creates an "infestation" and basically takes over. It causes waterways to be blocked up and drives out native species such as cattails as well as drastically reducing biological diversity simply by Taking Over All The Things. I'd imagine purple loosestrife has plenty of energy to offer if you can harness it safely. Heck, I don't know, maybe taking all that energy and doing something useful with it would be a good thing!

ETA: You might look at Verbena (blue vervain) or Fireweed. Maybe even some type of thistle? I've seen some that are fairly pinkish.

Edited at 2013-12-13 08:55 pm (UTC)
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 13th, 2013 10:55 pm (UTC)
That's good to know. I am in NY. :-) I wonder how it would fare battling against the phragmites infestation we have in the area. I'm not necessarily looking to grow whatever it is, I'm wondering if it's something I can pick up already grown and dried for a quick fix.
lupinelullaby
Dec. 12th, 2013 01:59 pm (UTC)
All the comments here seem pretty helpful, especially with identifying the flower you saw and ideas on how to charge it. I just wanted to pop in and say what you may not want to use to charge it... sunlight. Sunlight does the opposite of charging them, it seems to drain them. There is some debate among people who keep and use crystals, but I strongly feel that long exposure to sunlight damages them and how effective they are. It definitely fades the color of crystals and can make clear crystal cloudy. Crystals often look dull and feel different after having sat in the sun for too long. Some people use moonlight, or bury them in the earth for a time, or with crystals that are impervious to water, running water. But mostly, just listen to what feels right for you and your crystal.
asteampunkwitch
Dec. 12th, 2013 06:45 pm (UTC)
Ack! Thanks for the heads up, I think I'm moving it out of the windowsill as soon as I get home! This one is a clear/quartz crystal sphere. It's not flawlessly clear, but I wouldn't want it to get cloudy.
dianthus
Dec. 15th, 2013 09:39 am (UTC)
The first plant I thought of was heather.
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